i am so blessed.  i have the job that i love.  a part time job that is stable enough for play money.  a family that supports me.  friends that go along with how crazy i can be.  and a boyfriend that adores me.

yet, dS is still in the picture. 
yet i can't quite give him up.
but i promise to try harder.
i pray for strength.  as it turns out, he is my favorite sin.

ps
sometimes, i look back and realize how blessed i am. 
how i take that for granted at times.